Friday, June 12, 2009

Gaga, Madonna, Maria

I am listening to Madonna's Frozen.

Yes my heart's not open. I waste my time with hate and regret.

You don't stay on top forever. Lady Gaga has come and vowed to be bigger than the material girl.
I hope Madonna stays relevant. I don't mind Gaga, her music's addictive and she has read many times something I should be reading.

Rainer Maria Rilke's Letters to Young Poet.

as I have said, one feels one could live without writing, then one shouldn't write at all"

I could live, but not fully.

Sunday, May 31, 2009


I don't know how to post up videos from other websites. A lesson would be very generous of you.

Somebody please fly me home.

Sunday, May 10, 2009


No school...for 2 weeks.

I have 1 week left.

I should do something grand with my life. 21 years and still nothing to show.

21 years and I don't know how things will go.

The present is a narrow space between past and future, yet the influence on both is massive.

They say the room reflects the state of mind.

The vacuum awaits. Watch out dust!

Taya will go to Gopeng for Matriculation tomorrow. Why must my favourites be so far away from me?

Wednesday, April 8, 2009


I was feeling like those leaves by the roadside: blown away by passing cars, swept away by the labour weary street sweeper.

Jalaludin Rumi tells us to be leonine.

Muhammad SAW says:

Meditation in God is my capital
Reason and sound logic are the root of my existence
Love is the foundation of my existence
Enthusiasm is the vehicle of my life
Contemplation of Allah is my companion
Faith is the source of my power
Sorrow is my friend
Knowledge is my weapon
Patience is my clothing and virtue
Submission to the Divine Will is my pride
Truth is my salvation
Worship is my habit
And in prayer lies the coolness of my eye and peace of mind

ascribed to Ali RA

Saturday, March 28, 2009


3 weeks to finals.

Tests and assignments come by the truckload. I have a paradigm shift now.

Since I am a hopeful undergraduate of a "World Class University", I take this challenge because I cannot complain about other people's inefficiency and procrastination. And it's gonna be harder in the REAL WORLD OUT THERE, so this is an exercise.

3 more semesters. I will go through this shitfest with a smile on my face.

Shit is not a bad word.


I just want to curl up in my bed reading story books. Listen to Enigma, look at photos on Flickr and pretend I am faraway from here.

I sorely miss Japan. 言葉にできない。

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Just Dance

I learn more outside the classroom.

1. I knew that Boeing and Airbus are actually companies, not just airplanes.

2. Why different glasses are used for different wines.

3. You have a shot of tuak (a local brew) at every house in a long house. If there are 26 in one stretch, you get 26 shots.

4. KFC fries chicken differently.

5. McD fries fries differently.

6. Why MAS serve guava and orange juice all the time. I drank the guava a lot because it was delicious. TL said travelers need a lot of vit c, check the history of the discovery of Australia for a more accurate story.

7. There is a place where you can explore who you are and won't be judged. I can't go though. I am 21 but it'll be 21 years till I truly become 21.

An old man danced and sang to the music in JM Briyani while we had lunch, not caring about people.

Not caring about my judging him for not being appropriate.

I secretly envy him.

It's a good idea to extend lunch breaks, no?

Tuesday, March 24, 2009


Why are birthdays celebrated?

That's right. It takes your mind off the fact that you are another year closer to death.

I am 21 years closer to death. Thank you for your well wishes and presents and hot air balloons.

Birthday wish: to be where you are.